You are alone. You are a burden to others. No one cares. You are unwanted.
These are some of Satan’s lies that I believe on a daily basis. I am a faceless person in a crowd. My shoulder swings back as someone bumps into me – I am invisible.
I focus a lot on my studies. Education has always been something I have poured myself into. I value it so much, especially now that I’m in college. From a very young age, I knew that learning was a wonderful, important thing, and that it was a privilege. Now I think I use it as an excuse for not keeping up with my interpersonal relationships.
“Oh, I can’t make it. I have to study.” I tell people over and over, only to go back to my room and feel an emptiness creeping over me as I stare at a blank computer screen or the first page of a book that I cannot make myself read.
I’ve told friends (and friends have told me), “Let’s go get a cup of coffee together. Even if we just study next to each other, at least we’ll be together.” I let the words tumble out of my mouth as I make empty promises for yet another shot of espresso.
Tonight was different.
I have been up to my nose in coursework this week, and I knew my weekend would be packed, so I decided to take myself out for that cup of coffee – at least I’d be out in public instead of my empty dorm room. The homework would get done either way.
As soon as I walk in, after first taking in the bittersweet smell that all coffee shops share, I see a friend – someone whom I’ve recently gotten to know. She offers me the chair across from her, and instead of studying our own books at the same table, we talk about our week, both the struggles and the blessings. It was a perfect opportunity to catch up with someone I desperately needed to spend time with.
She leaves a little while later, and I begin to open my books, trying to collect my thoughts through the hum of the coffee shop chatter. Three hours go by, and I have worked through several assignments I was hoping to finish – my whole purpose in escaping my dorm room.
In walks a great friend of mine, and she instantly pulls out the chair across from me, where just a few hours ago another pal sat. We work on homework some more, but mostly we talk about how much we love our shared major. In walks another friend, and she instantly joins in the conversation.
The conversation spans topics of school, church, lifestyles, and so many other things. It is truly beautiful.
As the coffee shop chairs are being stacked on the tables, we roam towards a dorm room, where we continue to talk about so many different things. Then on to Sonic, where fried foods accompany even more vulnerable conversation.
You are alone… until you aren’t.
Christ tells you these truths: You are loved. You are worthy. People care. You are not invisible.
Christ is able to work through these amazing, wonderful, vulnerable people He put on this earth.
All you have to do is be there.